We’ve all done it before
Wished away hours, days, months.
I watch as you wish life gone
To cut short your endurance.
You chuckled like I’m still a silly child
Annoyed every word spoken is not believed.
The automatic yes of course you demanded
It brooks no questions, there are no answers.
That you can voice.
Tell the lies to yourself that all is well
Same old platitudes of being fine.
Even the ranks have closed around you
They know but won’t say
See but won’t look
Avoid my eye when answering simple things.
The barricades are up in the town where all’s well
Defences being built upon daily.
I see cracks in the veneer, a hand span
And know I’m not only a lone creature now
This black sheep that left the fold to live
But I’m a deserter whom none will hear.
As you close down your world almost announcing gleefully
That you’re closing shop, pulling shutters slowly
You know that I’m the one who can see you
And can do nothing as you fade away.
All carry on in unspoken agreement
Tiptoe around what you don’t want to see.
And carry on playing the same old game
Of everything’s wonderful in summer town.
Wishing and fading away.